with reverence comes pain

I am cold ...inside and outside ..the winter chill seeps inside me when my heart cries out loud and my brain tries to resolutely smother them all ..

To have known you ..and be destroyed ; to be destroyed .to rise back a la phoenix..and this time be shattered ..i am leading myself to annihilation ...drying myself out in process.

Why can't I be a fake ..like all others ?Or have other people become fake in the process of drying out ?If God made me genuine ..why is my fate bound to tie me to superficiality ..

On yesterday's debate..you win ..So does your God..and me and cosmos cry with our tears splattering our weak hearts...I wish you were cruel..so that i could be venomous ..but you are not ..you are kinder than a teardrop on a fragile eyelash...which makes it worse

God oh God let me come to you ..in being with him i lost the piece of my heart that wont ever be back to me But in being back with my God I can be back with my serenity