i am ugly

i am ugly ... and getting uglier day by day ...

i was born pretty...free of wiles..and the beauty of innocense radiated within me.. my actions where the slaves of only right thoughts...morally and spiritually estute.
I started getting ugly and distorted with days.. the filth of "social behaviour" interpersed my pure skin with the moles of "accepted behaviour"... my innocent soul was bathed in the slick of "what you need to learn to survive",so that my soul died its natural death..replaced by something that i don't recognise... a blurred and awry version of a "common man"...
So while i go on becoming acceptable .... I learn things that i must do ... that make my spirit so ugly that it becomes repulsive...that I can't call it mine... but i live with it ,nonetheless.
My mind bears so many scars now that its barely there... in its thinking faculty ... and i am getting uglier and uglier...